Ventings & brief ramble on War / Election

This has been a crappy day for the most part. It's Friday, and I have no where to be this evening, that was the first thing to bother me. Then came a moment at lunch where I should have said something in response to a comment someone else made about themself that is false, but I didn't, and I got fucking pissed at myself for it. I still partially wish I would've said something, even if it would have been misconstrued (or perhaps taken the way it really was meant O_o), instead of keeping my mouth shut out of discomfort. And then there is this tugging feeling coming from my heart, adding to the problems (among other items I won't go into and list).

The perfect relief to what I had to vent about, which therefore was unexpected, was to come across my old friend Darius during my walk home. He disappeared a year ago or so, along with Dusty, and apparently they both just came back this week. Heh. It was nice. Reminded me of the first semester of my Jr. year where in Ms. Munro's world history class the three of us were having way too much fun, so much so that she seperated us to three different corners of the room... but that didn't stop us. Heh, those were great times.

Turned the news on to hear sobering news about the Russian school standoff, which I had read about 3rd hour and the speculation that over a hundred were dead, to find that it was a definite: At least 120 dead. More casualties to the rebels of unknown origin (its been assumed that they're Chechen), who are one of many terrorist groups in the world that need to be routed (but to be realistic they can't all be confirmed as obliterated, and there will always be people will grievances who go to such extremes -- especially as the world population increases).

I am back to undecided in the election race, leaning unfortunately towards Bush. There are good reasons to vote for him, a lot of logic behind some of them, I mean what I saw of his speech last night was pretty good for political campaign bullshit to remain in the White House (heh, I turned on Family Guy when it started before Bush's speech ended), and, one that came up at lunch is how he is a confirmed leader, maybe not the best but he's been tested.

It's a typical time of war decision -- either place confidence in whose been in charge thus far or hand the reigns to someone with no familiarity to how it is all run and the details of the global situation exclusive to within the walls of the White House. And if someone new comes in, and they mess things up, it'll mean the lives of more people our age.

There's also the argument of how Senators lack the know how of executive office, which I partly agree with. Dean was a Governor, and he would have been a more formidable candidate for the Dems rather than Herman Munster.

Still, part of me wants to go with that "Anybody but Bush" because of how much he reminds me of Jim when I hear him and look at him. But, again, thats another bias, and its not really a very logical reason, either. But, then there's the blandness and lack of Charisma attributed to Kerry. They shouldn't matter but to many they do, without them even realizing it. We're choosing someone to run the country, not someone to talk to every day or two (especially Bush with how few press conferences he's had as president), or, since some people base it on looks -- Someone to hook up with. In otherwords, ignoring the challenger because of a dislike/emotional bias towards the incumbant isn't what I'd consider the best reason... but part of me does that anyway.

Which means I'm back to square one, for probably the fourth time in the last couple of months: Undecided, with constant questioning keeping me from really choosing who to go with. I want to stay with Kerry under the reasoning that I'd rather risk a new Commander in Chief to get rid of one that I don't think is fighting the war right (terrorists are in many more locations than Iraq or Afghanistan... though we've made it easy to locate them since we've caused them to flock to Iraq.).

The militarist in me wants to see more of a broader campaign, instead of placing all of our eggs in one basket as we have by overstretching the military with our gargantuan force in Iraq (gargantuan by today's standard of troop strength, at least)... not to mention aren't a good portion of our troops in Iraq Reservists and Guardsmen, and not regular Army or Special Forces? And under Kerry there may be even less action in the war than there is today. And as the Russian school incident, as well as their airline bombings, and the fighting last month in Ingushetia that killed 90 have at least taight Russia: You may not want a fight, but they do, and civilians are fair game / primary targets.

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And I just completely lost all train of thought. Heh. That was funny. Eh...

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I think I'm gonna end the post here, to be honest. I need to recollect my thoughts as best I can, and try and get something done. I need to turn off my mind, at least on where they're at right now. Besides, I'm picking up steam with the first part of "New Galaxy". I've got a beginning, and potentially an ending for at least the first small Part of it... but I doubt I could stretch that amount to over forty pages (if that even). And, I still need to find a way to work in other characters in a somewhat dramatic / convenient way.